If only things could work out the way you want them to. Life is not easy and I've known that for a long time but only just finding out what it really means. Yes I might of moved back home so I can set my life up properly. Some people might be thinking that I am taking the easy way out but I know it's what I need to do it. I feel lilke my friends don't really care about whats going on in my life. I know that they have their own problems and all that, but I have always felt like I'm ignored. When I'm talking to someone I get interrupted, when I'm out with friends I'm left behind and forgoten about. When there is a party or something I'm never invited. I just feel like I shouldn't know anyone and just turn into a hermit. Because I know that if this continues I won't make it to 30. I feel like right now my life has no meaning. I actually feel like my life hasn't had any meaning for along time. I feel like everyone ignores me and forgets about me, even with my closest friends. Sometimes I wish I was one of those important people that no one forgot. That made a name for themself. My life is in shambles. I try my best at everything and it's never good enough. It's never good enough for anyone. It's never good enough to remember. It's never good enough to congratulate. It's just never good enough. Story of my life. Not good enough. Needs to try harder. I try and I try but noone notices. The only person that would fucking notice is dead. And now yet again another sleepless night thinking about the "what if's". I'm fucking over it and I'm over this so called life. It's fucking bullshit.